I’ll jump in your ocean
Don’t make me fall
Save me from emotions
I didn’t plan that at all
In a high mountain
I’ll jump like a rainfall
But please, don’t let me awol.
I found the way to your heart..
I’m wadding for the journey
From where should I start?
I grabbed band aids ’cause what I’ve been told seems real
And the road is hard to peel
In my way,
I felt the hunger for your touch
But the dream of holding your hand in the end gave strength to my soul.
I picked the broken pieces in this rough road willing to be your heroine
And when it rained,
I slumbered in a safe place
In your secure cave.
I prayed god to keep you for me
I prayed god to let no one reach you before me
The sun shined out of nowhere..
Your loyal birds couldn’t hid your story for so long
A little bird begged me to turn this gloomy land to paradise
I dug everywhere,
I found little joy, spangled moments, a lilliputian hope, and a smile.
In your sky
I looked for the rainbows of desire to be my direction
The end of the road is near
I may see your paradise
I smelled the roses,
I swam the lake,
I survived it all .
My eyes looked straight ahead to see your huge portcullis
As the gate opened
I stopped dead
I am afraid to touch this land.
I wonder if you ever think of how you can sparkle my world
And how your words can make me fly …or fall
It’s just a wonderland..
I force myself to believe that you feel the same way about me
That night I felt bad for myself
I felt sad for myself for letting you control my world.. my senses
There’s no suitable way to drop a line
I just happen to write to clear my head,
Trying not to show the world this mess I live in…
So bad I want to be your first choice
So bad I want you to realize your life won’t be the same if I left you..
Sometimes, I wish, I pray, in your eyes to be the only one
..to be your only choice,
So bad I want you to get lost, just to be your home..
Yet, I know,you prefer her over me..
You said that, and I can clearly see that hurtful truth
It’s not selfishness as they say..
With confident I say;
I deserve to be the first thing you think about
When you open your eyes early in the morning
And the last thing on your mind, late at night..
I don’t need you,
I happen to need,.. your shiny, glamorous eyes
And when the clock strikes midnight
And I start to feel unconscious, I lay on bed, craving your voice
But I forgot all that, when I decided to, when I thought I can, I did
That morning, I left.
I thought, just thought, I could survive..
I kept a secret from myself.. I hid the truth..
That I still need you to appreciate me, build your world around me
And walked away…
I heard a voice in the back of my head that says;
Replacements can make you forget them
..Replacements can make you forget them
I went looking for replacement
I went looking for your eyes
But, flashbacks ruined everything,
And destroyed the strength I build that night..
And your place in my crowded world..
No one touched it.
Baby, I’m back.
Baby, I came.
Left me crying over nonsense reason
Why would you disappear?
The nightmares are catching me every night
You left me wretched,..and weak
Maybe I want you real
I want you here..
Maybe I hate you for it,
Maybe you have a reason and will show it.
I just don’t know yet
But I keep questing myself..
Is it true that I’m missing you..
Or am I annoyed from you appearing in my dreams?
I keep questing myself; I still feel weak, and lost..
But curiosity aches,
When there’s no reason, no one I can reach
I keep wondering, my mind aches a little
Comparing by the ache you caused to my heart
A huge horrible lie I said; in strong words I spoke;
With what I thought can rest my head..
I lied to myself; with all my mind I tried to believe
To cure this young, poor heart,..I tried
I know, thinking of you and what I said to myself;
When I said;
I wouldn’t mind, I’d not miss you if you asked me for leaving
I’d still wait for your call,
I’d still wait for you to come back through my door.