Left me crying over nonsense reason
Why would you disappear?
The nightmares are catching me every night
You left me wretched,..and weak
Maybe I want you real
I want you here..
Maybe I hate you for it,
Maybe you have a reason and will show it.
I just don’t know yet
But I keep questing myself..
Is it true that I’m missing you..
Or am I annoyed from you appearing in my dreams?
I keep questing myself; I still feel weak, and lost..
But curiosity aches,
When there’s no reason, no one I can reach
I keep wondering, my mind aches a little
Comparing by the ache you caused to my heart
A huge horrible lie I said; in strong words I spoke;
With what I thought can rest my head..
I lied to myself; with all my mind I tried to believe
To cure this young, poor heart,..I tried
I know, thinking of you and what I said to myself;
When I said;
I wouldn’t mind, I’d not miss you if you asked me for leaving
I’d still wait for your call,
I’d still wait for you to come back through my door.