Horrifying Mind

How I spilled water on the floor, I swear it was never poison.

But I was fearful, and it was dark, I ran and hid before I hear steps, and I waited, for someone.. 

To make a noise, any noise, to scream and scare me, but it was quite and warm, and the darkness turned into brightness, 

Oh, how I breathed again.


Scared, and fearful of emptiness I was.
Quite and warm reality was.

I believe that the world my head lives in

Is more horrible place

Than a world full of women

Hunting our bodies

With their tongues.



The fear of being forgotten got me lost in your recollections.
All away from fearing loneliness, I fear fleeing your bed..
I fear the paper near my pillow
I fear the ink that wrote these spartan words
But my greatest fear is not peering you laying next to me by night.
Have you ever sensed the same?
I grasped that I’m trapped in your cage since day one
The problem was that  I never wanted to escape
You never taught me how to fly
You never asked me to try..
What am I suppose to say?
Now, I identify, that you are what I fear the most.



I write this letter for us, for the past and the memories.
Apologizing for everything I didn’t do to keep the roof above our hearts.
It’s not us anymore
It’s just You and …me
We’re not apart
But we’re not even close
No one left the battlefield
No one’s bleeding
It saddens me how things will fall apart eventually..
I can see the future, the lonely nights, and the wet white pillow..
A month passed without you, and the year will end in a blink of an eye…without you!
I promised our souls to hold myself together, till I forget the promises you broke.
Wise people always write about forever, fairytales and promises. And they both sing the same song, and the world knows that nothing lasts forever, and this ain’t a fairytale, and promises are meant to be broken.

Empty Walls

Each thought of you can hurt my mind, and mess up the sight. 
I can only allow you to leave, just stay responsible for what you did to me, so, When you leave..
Pick your story, Erase your memories, And close the door behind you. 
I don’t want anyone to open it, so, leave it locked, and swallow the key.
You’re evil,  for choosing my rest time to show up surprisingly.
You pop out of nowhere, to remind me of how much I messed up with you, so, please, don’t leave scars. 
All I’m about is missing you, I’m going crazy about you, half of me worried, and the other half don’t know what’s the right thing to do.
How is that even possible? 
To draw sadness on my face, that what makes you special, evil things you do best.
And the hardest part, is you forcing me to keep you in mind..
And everything around me makes me miss you.
I wake up each night checking on you, like a mother checkin’ on her son, but the fever you’ve got, burned my skin, And I’m poor to cure your madness.
This day has to come uncontrollably.
Like fate, like a nightmare.
After you, I promised myself to build walls without doors.
You’re evil for leaving me like that, I can’t see nor hold your hand.
It’s seems like the end of the road is right here, and that’s what scares me the most.