I wonder if you ever think of how you can sparkle my world
And how your words can make me fly …or fall
It’s just a wonderland..
I force myself to believe that you feel the same way about me
That night I felt bad for myself
I felt sad for myself for letting you control my world.. my senses
There’s no suitable way to drop a line
I just happen to write to clear my head,
Trying not to show the world this mess I live in…
So bad I want to be your first choice
So bad I want you to realize your life won’t be the same if I left you..
Sometimes, I wish, I pray, in your eyes to be the only one
..to be your only choice,
So bad I want you to get lost, just to be your home..
Yet, I know,you prefer her over me..
You said that, and I can clearly see that hurtful truth
It’s not selfishness as they say..
With confident I say;
I deserve to be the first thing you think about
When you open your eyes early in the morning
And the last thing on your mind, late at night..
I don’t need you,
I happen to need,.. your shiny, glamorous eyes
And when the clock strikes midnight
And I start to feel unconscious, I lay on bed, craving your voice
But I forgot all that, when I decided to, when I thought I can, I did
That morning, I left.
I thought, just thought, I could survive..
I kept a secret from myself.. I hid the truth..
That I still need you to appreciate me, build your world around me
And walked away…
I heard a voice in the back of my head that says;
Replacements can make you forget them
..Replacements can make you forget them
I went looking for replacement
I went looking for your eyes
But, flashbacks ruined everything,
And destroyed the strength I build that night..
And your place in my crowded world..
No one touched it.
Baby, I’m back.
Baby, I came.