Letter

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I write this letter for us, for the past and the memories.
Apologizing for everything I didn’t do to keep the roof above our hearts.
 
It’s not us anymore
It’s just You and …me
We’re not apart
But we’re not even close
No one left the battlefield
No one’s bleeding
 
It saddens me how things will fall apart eventually..
I can see the future, the lonely nights, and the wet white pillow..
 
A month passed without you, and the year will end in a blink of an eye…without you!
 
I promised our souls to hold myself together, till I forget the promises you broke.
 
 
Wise people always write about forever, fairytales and promises. And they both sing the same song, and the world knows that nothing lasts forever, and this ain’t a fairytale, and promises are meant to be broken.

Nonsense thoughts

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Left me crying over nonsense reason

Why would you disappear?

The nightmares are catching me every night

You left me wretched,..and weak

Maybe I want you real

I want you here.. 

Maybe I hate you for it, 

Maybe you have a reason and will show it.

I just don’t know yet

 But I keep questing myself..

Is it true that I’m missing you.. 

Or am I annoyed from you appearing in my dreams?

I keep questing myself; I still feel weak, and lost.. 

 

But curiosity aches, 

When there’s no reason, no one I can reach

…for help

I keep wondering, my mind aches a little

A little,..

Comparing by the ache you caused to my heart 

A huge horrible lie I said; in strong words I spoke; 

With what I thought can rest my head..

 

I lied to myself; with all my mind I tried to believe

To cure this young, poor heart,..I tried

 

Deep down, 

I know, thinking of you and what I said to myself; 

When I said; 

 

I wouldn’t mind, I’d not miss you if you asked me for leaving

 

Deep down,

 

 I know, 

I’d still wait for your call, 

I’d still wait for you to come back through my door.