Horrifying Mind

How I spilled water on the floor, I swear it was never poison.

But I was fearful, and it was dark, I ran and hid before I hear steps, and I waited, for someone.. 

To make a noise, any noise, to scream and scare me, but it was quite and warm, and the darkness turned into brightness, 

Oh, how I breathed again.

 

Scared, and fearful of emptiness I was.
Quite and warm reality was.

I believe that the world my head lives in

Is more horrible place

Than a world full of women

Hunting our bodies

With their tongues.

Priceless need

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A priceless need to the stormy weather
That makes you feel surrounded by lovers
 
 
A priceless need in showing pauperization
To involve you in alienation
 
 
A priceless need in acting innocent
To teach me sin
 
Lose your mind
Be mine
Never leave behind
Let’s drink wine
Act blind
Leave it unsigned
 
 
 ‘Cause I got your sight
Cuddle me tight,
Tonight..
 
 
To reach your Edge
To catch your Soul
This is my priceless need.

World On War

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This afternoon, the weather was frustrated

 But I kept on walking to reach ’em

 I glanced a man filled with anger, 

Yelling at the boy out of hunger

While this noisy world didn’t care to share bread, 

To calm him down before he turns dead.

 And this young lady was in a hurry, 

Trying to catch up with time

But, she end up pouring coffee on her shirt, 

Like it was her first time.

 And the boss, caressed his life, to win this deal,

 But he couldn’t ’cause the lady wasn’t here.

 I ran to help the old lady cross the street

She was surprised of my treat.

 

 Is the world on war? 

    Can you beat careless heat?

 

I walked to share a smile..

 I lost prospect’s attention, found neglect and rejection.

     ..Disappointment covered my eyes

 And depression filled their ways

 As she said; it will soon be dead.

And now, 

I believe this crowded planet will soon get drafty, 

As my cup of coffee gets empty.

 

 

What’s our duty?

Paradise

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 I found the way to your heart..

 I’m wadding for the journey

          From where should I start?

  I grabbed band aids ’cause what I’ve been told seems real

 And the road is hard to peel  

 

  In my way,

I felt the hunger for your touch 

But the dream of holding your hand in the end gave strength to my soul.   

I picked the broken pieces in this rough road willing to be your heroine

 

And when it rained,

I slumbered in a safe place

In your secure cave. 

 

I prayed god to keep you for me 

I prayed god to let no one reach you before me  

 

  The sun shined out of nowhere..

Your loyal birds couldn’t hid your story for so long

A little bird begged me to turn this gloomy land to paradise  

 

I dug everywhere,

I found little joy, spangled moments, a lilliputian hope, and a smile.

 

In your sky

I looked for the rainbows of desire to be my direction  

 

The end of the road is near 

 I may see your paradise 

 

     I..

I smelled the roses,

I swam the lake,

I survived it all .

 

My eyes looked straight ahead to see your huge portcullis

As the gate opened

         I stopped dead

I am afraid to touch this land.

I came

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I wonder if you ever think of how you can sparkle my world  

And how your words can make me fly …or fall    

 

It’s just a wonderland..

I force myself to believe that you feel the same way about me 

 

That night I felt bad for myself  

I felt sad for myself for letting you control my world.. my senses    


There’s no suitable way to drop a line 

 I just happen to write to clear my head, 

      Trying not to show the world this mess I live in…  


So bad I want to be your first choice  

So bad I want you to realize your life won’t be the same if I left you..  

Sometimes, I wish, I pray, in your eyes to be the only one 

 ..to be your only choice,  

So bad I want you to get lost, just to be your home..   

               Yet, I know,you prefer her over me..   

You said that, and I can clearly see that hurtful truth   

It’s not selfishness as they say..  

     With confident I say; 

I deserve to be the first thing you think about   

When you open your eyes early in the morning 

And the last thing on your mind, late at night..  


 I don’t need you,  

I happen to need,.. your shiny, glamorous eyes   

And when the clock strikes midnight 

And I start to feel unconscious, I lay on bed, craving your voice  

But I forgot all that, when I decided to, when I thought I can, I did    

That morning, I left.  

I thought, just thought, I could survive..    

I kept a secret from myself.. I hid the truth..  

That I still need you to appreciate me, build your world around me    


And walked away…   

  I heard a voice in the back of my head that says;  

Replacements can make you forget them  

     ..Replacements can make you forget them   


I went looking for replacement  

I went looking for your eyes  

 But, flashbacks ruined everything,  

And destroyed the strength I build that night..    

And your place in my crowded world..  

Stayed empty, 

No one touched it.     

Baby, I’m back. 

Baby, I came.

Nonsense thoughts

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Left me crying over nonsense reason

Why would you disappear?

The nightmares are catching me every night

You left me wretched,..and weak

Maybe I want you real

I want you here.. 

Maybe I hate you for it, 

Maybe you have a reason and will show it.

I just don’t know yet

 But I keep questing myself..

Is it true that I’m missing you.. 

Or am I annoyed from you appearing in my dreams?

I keep questing myself; I still feel weak, and lost.. 

 

But curiosity aches, 

When there’s no reason, no one I can reach

…for help

I keep wondering, my mind aches a little

A little,..

Comparing by the ache you caused to my heart 

A huge horrible lie I said; in strong words I spoke; 

With what I thought can rest my head..

 

I lied to myself; with all my mind I tried to believe

To cure this young, poor heart,..I tried

 

Deep down, 

I know, thinking of you and what I said to myself; 

When I said; 

 

I wouldn’t mind, I’d not miss you if you asked me for leaving

 

Deep down,

 

 I know, 

I’d still wait for your call, 

I’d still wait for you to come back through my door.